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Larisa Sidyuk

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Planning Escape
From Your Childhood Dreams
In Search Of Transformation
10 Days of Hell





Planning Escape

Let me leave to be lost and found
To be re-assembled by
The chemistry of a sound
The trajectory of a sigh.

An ear against the wall.
A leap of a furious heart.
Feet stumbling on shoes in the hall.
A curtain not yet pulled apart.
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A suitcase and nothing to pack.
A key turning, clicking, stuck.
A keyhole in pain, bleeding black.
A radio in the truck.
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A hoarse-voiced, soft, jazz-like way
Of kissing the past goodbye.
A shamelessly naked day
Exposing its back to the sky.
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Uneasiness breaks like a spell.
No treacheries ever again.
A soul can rip off its shell
To soak in the warm summer rain.
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From Your Childhood Dreams

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In the warmth of a foggy morning,
When street lamps shed their milky light
You will float towards the unknown
Through the pool of a dying night.
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On the plank of a butterfly wisper,
Paddling with a smooth sting of an oar,
You'll evoke the non-existent
Breaking through the forbidden door.
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Breath of roses and dew sprayed around,
Autumn mist irresistably sweet,
Like a dream, not a move, not a sound
But a rustle of hasty feet.
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And a woman, old, pale, with grey hair,
Will appear in phosphorous stream,
So angry and lost in despare...
'You should leave! Close the door!' she will scream.
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You will lean on a cold heavy metal.
You will push it with all of your might
Wishing just for a crumpled rose petal
Stained with sobs of a dying night.
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In Search of Transformation

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Why
šššššššš do kisses taste sweet and stale,
Dry
šššššššš crumbs of a yesterday's cake.
My
šššššššš song is a wolf's lonely wail,
My
šššššššš name is a wispering snake.
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Why
šššššššš doesn't love last long enough.
Tired
šššššššš eyes, drooping shapes in the night.
I'm
šššššššš lost in the blind-man's buff,
Tied
šššššššš up in the absence of light.
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Time
ššššššššš winding its heart every day
Might
ššššššššš burst shooting hundreds of springs
High
ššššššššš into the sky's disarray,
Di-
ššššššššš luting the order of things.
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I
šššššššš may fly away or stay here
I'll
šššššššš win or I'll lose, what the heck,
My
šššššššš name will still hiss in my ear,
My
šššššššš song will howl, looping my neck.


10 Days Of Hell


Needles and pins
šššššššššššššššššš under my skin,
Pieces of cloth.

Sugar and salt -
ššššššššššššššššš nobody's fault,
Touch of a moth.

Aching in sleep,
šššššššššššššššššš learning to weep
Day after day.

Snowfall seeds,
šššššššššššššššššš mercury beeds
Are on the way.

Tears and rust,
šššššššššššššššššš smoke and dust
Blending so well,

Aging so fast.
šššššššššššššššššš These are the last
10 days of Hell.